My Little Big Brother...

Tonight I burnt dinner and my parent just leave for the weekend. I felt so bad. My little big brother ate it because he said it was not that bad, then he asked "what did you make me for lunch, that was good?" This is my little brother I was just talking to my little sister about today saying that he never complains. It took me a little while to realize that his question was a hint for me to make him one of them at the same time as I am making brownies to make up for burning dinner. :) He asked me while I was making the food "why is that you are the only one that get distracted?" this is funny because a month ago while I was getting to know a young man everyone started to see that I get distracted and thought that it was because of the young man, but it was because when I get started to think about thing I can get deep in thought and miss what is going on around me. :) Well when my other brother get home from work later I will probably have to make him something too or maybe he has a sniffer like our little sister and not notice the smell. :)

Learning to be content with where the Lord places me...

This past February, I met a 30 year old single lady at a Homeshool get together and she was talk to me a my sister about the freedom that single ladies have, that we can focus on the things of the Lord where if we were married we would have to focus of our family's needed. I started to pray and think about this, I decide then that I was content being single because I wanted to serve the Lord the way he wanted me to. I started to pray that the Lord would show me where he wanted to send me. As I prayed about that the Lord laid on my heart that the desire of my heart might not be his and so I started to pray that His desire be my desires. It was amazing because I started to not desire to go to Africa a be a missionary nurse, I do still have a desire to be a missionary nurse but I do not know if the Lord is lead me to be a missionary to America or some place else. After giving up the desire to marry the Lord brought a young man into my life that wanted to get to know me. I was surprise but pray a lot about it and asked the Lord to show me if I was just to be friends with him or consider more. I did not feel the Lord telling me to not get to know him better. So up until a month ago, this young man and I were getting to know each other with possibility of marriage. A month ago the Lord asked me to give it up  and I did. It was so hard because I really cared about this young man and did not want to hurt him. Then a few days after giving him up I started to ask cry out to God asking why He allowed some one to come into my life right at the time that I had give up my desires. That was when the Lord started to show me the many things He wanted to teach me during and through the relationship. I learned so many things while in the relationship and then the Lord keeps showing me more everyday. I do not know what the Lord has in store for me in the future but I know that the Lord will show me His will in His perfect time.

Starting...

I am not sure how this is going to work but I thought I would give it a try. My Mom suggested that I write on a blog and since I started my Journals over 7 years ago to write my thoughts down I thought that maybe if I share my thoughts with others they can benefit from them too. It is okay if you do not agree with me I do not mind. I am not trying to change any one with what I say on here, I just hope that some one can get some thing out of what the Lord is teaching me at the time. So, feel free to read my blog and please excuses the mistakes in my grammar and spelling, I will try to be sure that it is right but I am not wanting to spend too much time on the spelling or I might give up on this all together.
I hope that some one enjoys this. Have a wonderful day filled with Gods Love :)