This past February, I met a 30 year old single lady at a Homeshool get together and she was talk to me a my sister about the freedom that single ladies have, that we can focus on the things of the Lord where if we were married we would have to focus of our family's needed. I started to pray and think about this, I decide then that I was content being single because I wanted to serve the Lord the way he wanted me to. I started to pray that the Lord would show me where he wanted to send me. As I prayed about that the Lord laid on my heart that the desire of my heart might not be his and so I started to pray that His desire be my desires. It was amazing because I started to not desire to go to Africa a be a missionary nurse, I do still have a desire to be a missionary nurse but I do not know if the Lord is lead me to be a missionary to America or some place else. After giving up the desire to marry the Lord brought a young man into my life that wanted to get to know me. I was surprise but pray a lot about it and asked the Lord to show me if I was just to be friends with him or consider more. I did not feel the Lord telling me to not get to know him better. So up until a month ago, this young man and I were getting to know each other with possibility of marriage. A month ago the Lord asked me to give it up and I did. It was so hard because I really cared about this young man and did not want to hurt him. Then a few days after giving him up I started to ask cry out to God asking why He allowed some one to come into my life right at the time that I had give up my desires. That was when the Lord started to show me the many things He wanted to teach me during and through the relationship. I learned so many things while in the relationship and then the Lord keeps showing me more everyday. I do not know what the Lord has in store for me in the future but I know that the Lord will show me His will in His perfect time.
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